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Thursday, October 30, 2008


I... I don't know what to feel now.

Am I supposed to feel happy? Sad? Or even... angry?

But nope.

All I have is this empty...void... that I can't possibly fill.

Maybe I'm tired. WTH I can't be bothered anymore.

I mean, what can I do? What can I say?

Hehh.

So I spent the whole day sitting around listening to my mp3, watching a game of Frisbee while my mind wandered off.

Things gradually went uphill as the day progressed, and once again I felt so glad I'm in ALPs.

Brandon showed us Detective Galileo! Like so ZOMG right!!!

Oh sheesh I'm turning into a crazy fangirl again.

The first episode of Galileo featured two of my favourite actors, Karasawa Toshiaki (Shiroi Kyoto, Zaizen Goro; Kobayakawa Nobuki no Koi as the title guy; Love Complex as Ryuzaki Go; 20th Century Boys, Kenji) and Fukuyama Masaharu (Perfect Love)!!! The two of them, along with with Kamikawa Takaya (Hanazakari no Kimitachi e as the gay doctor; Shiroi Kyoto as the lawyer) and the ever so fascinating Johnny Depp complete the list of my favourite actors, ever. XD And yes, I do realize they average around 40+ years of age. =.=

BUT GALILEO! I fell in love with the show the very first time I set my eyes on it, when it was showing on channel 56 (dubbed and all) during the promos period eeps. XD It's very similar to Numb3rs or even CSI, involving a genius using science to solve crimes. I see a very strong link between Galileo and Numb3rs, haha. Yukawa Manabu (a.k.a. Galileo) is like the Math professor Charlie in so many ways.


11.後青春期的詩
曲詞:阿信

後青春期的詩 Poetry of the Day After - 五月天

當煙霧隨晨光飄散 枕畔的湖已風乾
期待已退化成等待 而我告別了突然
當淚痕勾勒成遺憾 回憶誇飾著傷感 逝水比喻時光荏苒

終於我們不再 為了生命狂歡 為愛情狂亂
然而青春彼岸 盛夏正要一天一天一天的燦爛

誰說不能讓我 此生唯一自傳 如同詩一般
無論多遠未來 讀來依然一字一句一篇都燦爛
讓天空解釋著蔚藍 浮雲定義著潔白
落花鋪陳一片紅色地毯 迎接我們到未來 精彩未完的未來


--FIRst Day <33--
10/30/2008 10:01:00 PM



Saturday, October 25, 2008


《你不是真正的快樂》

人群中哭著 妳只想變成透明的顏色
你再也不會夢或痛或心動了 你已經決定了 你已經決定了

你靜靜忍著 緊緊把昨天在拳心握著
而回憶愈是甜就是愈傷人 愈是在手心留下密密麻麻深深淺淺的刀割

* 你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
  你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了 把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

這世界笑了 於是你合群的一起笑了
當生存是規則不是你的選擇 於是你含著眼淚飄飄盪蕩跌跌撞撞的走著

(Repeat *)

# 你不是真正的快樂 你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
  我站在你左側卻像隔著銀河 難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了 
然後才後悔著

(Repeat *)
(Repeat #)

你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下妳穿的保護色
為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢 能不能就讓悲傷全部結束在此刻 重新開始活著


--FIRst Day <33--
10/25/2008 09:49:00 PM


20th Century Boys
Wednesday, October 22, 2008


OH. MY. GAWD.

Before I stepped into the cinema, I had no idea I would be staring at Karasawa Toshiaki's face for the next two hours. MY GAWD Karasawa is the male lead in 20th Century Boys! Fancy that! And here's another catch - his sister in this movie is the woman Zaizen Goro had an affair with in Shiroi Kyoto (白色巨塔)! XD

OMG I really can't believe this. I just chanced upon a movie by my favourite actor (besides JDepp, that is), 4 years after Shiroi Kyoto's release!

I'm really glad he's doing so well in his career. :D

That aside, I think 20th Century Boys is a decent movie. I know the rest think otherwise, but... XD Haha I'm biased.


--FIRst Day <33--
10/22/2008 05:12:00 PM


NUMBERS
Thursday, October 16, 2008


THREE days till the release of promo results

ONE week till the release of MD 7th album Poetry of the Day After [後。青春期的詩]

TWENTY days till Project Work Oral Presentation

ONE MONTH till Lee Guitars concert

ONE AND A HALF MONTHS till ALPs trip

TWO AND A HALF MONTHS till 2009


NUMBERS.

I wonder why numbers don't seem to mean anything to me anymore.


POLICE. 波丽士. 諧音。美麗的武士。

波丽士 - 阿沁


--FIRst Day <33--
10/16/2008 10:58:00 PM


懷舊金曲之夜
Wednesday, October 15, 2008


和一幫志同道合的(豬)朋(狗)友混在一起大聲K歌,感覺真的很棒!

用力的呐喊

用力的斯吼

用力揮霍青春!!!

至少,記憶中的那天的KBOX是屬於我們的。XD


HAHAHAHAHAHA 李宗盛 鄧麗君 庾澄庆 周華健 小虎隊 王傑 張雨生 等等等等!

(懷舊WORH)

你們沒有因時光的流逝而被大家遺忘!XD


還有還有!張震岳 五月天 + 其他許多歌手名字太多我都記不起來了!


超爽!:D

-跳著小護士舞,唱著軋車-


鬼迷心竅 - 李宗盛


--FIRst Day <33--
10/15/2008 11:16:00 PM


Of names and... WHY?
Monday, October 13, 2008


RIJC.

Heh, what the freak is RIJC.

A foreign name... of a place I do not belong.

So frivolous, so bloody superficial.

And what's with all the reassurance that there will be dialogue sessions to get feedback from us?

Bullshit.

Please. Who are you trying to kid? Nobody cares what we think. Everything is done, written in ink for the whole of Singapore to see before we get our say.

Wow. Everything the adults do, they have their reasons. The adults do what they feel is right for everyone. Do you see that? THEY FEEL. Not WE FEEL. THEIR. Not OUR.
So the all supreme adults are almighty and righteous? HAH.

It's simple for you to pass this off as teenage angst.

BUT I guess we just need to be convinced that it is worth all the trouble.

RIJC. Gosh, this is going to be a standing joke.


--FIRst Day <33--
10/13/2008 10:27:00 PM


出頭天
Tuesday, October 07, 2008


I LOVE THIS MV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



雖然不是正式版,但我還是比較喜歡這個網絡洩漏的版本。很簡單,很純樸,很符合五月天通過出頭天想表達的憨人精神。五個人胡鬧,很舒服,很親切。 奸笑

五個人嬉笑玩閙讓坐在屏幕前的我感到無比欣慰(?!),莫名的感動。

就是這樣,簡單的、不做作的。

最真誠、最真實的五月天 = 不能用言語來表達的感動。


P.S. 會不會讓你想起中國版的后街男孩!!!XDDD


--FIRst Day <33--
10/07/2008 03:35:00 PM



Monday, October 06, 2008


[My reply to a post on unruly behaviour by some MD fans... I shall spare you from the details. I feel that this summarizes my thoughts and feelings on fandom in general (AND it's in English! XD]


ME:

Freak seriously?! 0.0 Well thankfully I've never seen that happening before and I doubt I'll ever go fetch them or send them off again. I'll stick to watching concert DVDs and listening to their CDs. -.-

And I get damn annoyed by people taking pictures or videos during a concert or any performance for that matter. You can call it camera-sensitive, but seriously. =.= It's so sneaky, and won't they feel naked and exposed when cameras are pointing at them from all angles? Perhaps one may shrug it off as the price of fame, but as appreciators of their music, shouldn't we at least try to help them reduce that? And it's not even climbing Mt. Everest or something of that scale. Simply follow what you are told to do at the start of every concert (at least the ones I've been to).

Till now I've always adopted the see-no-evil kind of stance on videoing and phototaking. I know it's not a brave thing to do, I'm ashamed of that. But I still cannot muster up the courage to stop the people around me from doing so, especially when I'm alone (like during Superband finals).

Well fandom (or appreciation of music, whatever you choose to call it) is about 眾樂樂 not 獨樂樂. I don't understand why some 'fans' are brimming jealousy and are so disturbingly possessive of their 'idols' (i personally don't think it's appropriate to call md a subject of idolization, but that is another issue althogether), it's simply selfishness and truly, the exposure of the ugly side of human nature.

AH that's my rather extremist viewpoint, a spurt of the moment kind of reaction and probably more emotions than logic are used here. Please pardon me if it is deemed offensive.


我只在乎你 - 蘇打綠 (小巨蛋 陪我歌唱 LIVE CD)

我只在乎你 Wo Zhi Zai Hu Ni - 苏打绿 Sodagreen


--FIRst Day <33--
10/06/2008 11:28:00 PM


怪人狂言……隨性亂點


(一)

真的不了解大人們的心思。

“人之出,性本善”

我總覺得人在成長過程中,最原始的“人性”漸漸隨著歲月消失。

兒時的那種純真、善良不知都跑到哪裏去了?


(二)


有許多大人們認爲“追星”百害無義,更有些人斷定“追星族”是膚淺的。

但以一個過來人而言,我想這只是“人類學”的一部分。

爲什麽是“人類學”呢?

因爲儅一個人無理智的迷上一個陌生人,更容易不小心展露自己醜陋的一面。

真的,不到兩年就已經目睹了人生百態,心情大起大落幅度大得連自己都被嚇到,還經理不少波折奇遇。

反正遲早都會上這堂課的,只是我們可能比別人早一些。看透凡世的分分離離、喜怒哀樂,認清人性的醜惡,領悟了,先是無奈,然後慢慢釋懷。


(三)


好啦,言歸正傳。

恕我直言,我真的覺得她們太自私了,太無情了。也許是沒有安全感吧。或者是年齡上的差異形成的“代溝”。她們的冷漠讓我心寒刺骨,她們的態度讓我抓狂。又不 是她的錯,爲什麽要讓她承擔所有的罪?明明知道她很渴望受到大家的歡迎,但又拒她門外。小小的圈子貌似容納不了多一個人,緊閉的心房不允許任何人的介入。 懷疑、猜測、排斥。對她們來講一切都這麽自然,對當事者來説卻是精神上的折磨與心理上的累贅耶!

不知何時,我們已被歸類為”外人”,社群的邊緣人物。

明擺的嘛,大家都想太多了。她沒搶沒刀身無寸鐵,根本都沒有任何惡意。你們恐怕太疑神疑鬼,太多心了吧!=。=


(四)


其實我在po上一篇吐槽文之前,猶豫了許久。真得不相讓故事中的主人翁牽扯進來。可是最終想要抒發自己憋在心裏的不爽的欲望勝過了理智。本來就身臨出境, 事情的起因也是因爲她無辜的被牽扯進來的嘛!別人本來是好心好意想伸出援手,卻不小心犯了戒忌,這算是她的錯嗎? 她是受害者耶!並不是什麽殺人放火的囚犯!莫名其妙。複雜的人物關係表,我們這些菜鳥怎麽搞得懂!還是在你們内心深處都暗暗自喜,好不容易把我們這些“小 兔崽子”甩掉,或許你們把我們當作“競爭對手”吧!當然,一切只是我的猜測遐想,但至少你們給與我足夠的遐想餘地/空間!

還有那 位某雙J小姐……拜托,不要把我們視爲被病毒感染的病人一樣好不好!把我們隔離起來、封閉起來、拒之門外。也許在你們的眼中那個人是病態,但和“病人”接 觸過的人都是罪人麽?和“病人”坐在一起就一定被“傳染”?爲什麽要懲罰無辜的被害者?什麽邏輯嘛,無知的大人。大人的世界好陰暗。


(五)


第一階段:不解。由始至終不知道發生了什麽事。是不小心冒犯了某high profile高層“權威”?還是不懂規矩?

第二階段:憤怒。反省了一陣子過後,愈來愈搞不懂到底是怎麽一回事。根本都不是我的錯嘛!不要莫名其妙好不好!

第三階段:老套話一句:人心難捉摸。

沒辦法,人就是這樣,互相矛盾,unpredictable.


越是努力揣摩
越是搞不懂
直到慢慢承認
這故事叫做錯


繼續活在自己的井中吧,在你極度豐富的幻想世界裏儅國王吧!


I'm sorry,我真得很不爽。

永無止境的等待


(終結話)


我從不認爲自己的觀點是萬分正確的(我沒有那麽自以爲了不起吧?),我也不能否認,我的脾氣不是很好,我的想法有時會很偏激,但至少我是有原則的人。(……)


如果成長會讓我失去所有的美好的一切,那我寧願永遠是個小孩。


大人的世界,我不懂。我也不想懂。



愛的代價 - 李宗盛

愛的代價 - 李宗盛


--FIRst Day <33--
10/06/2008 02:03:00 PM


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and all his movies
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Pendergast books
Green
Black

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