The clear blue sea of the Atlantic..

COP
Monday, January 22, 2007

Confession of Pain! omgish I think Tony Leung is hot! Haha on par with Johnny Depp. That's how good he is. Recently have been watching quite a number of his films, including the mushy mushy Sound of Colours for our Chinese lesson. Yep here's a music video of COP.

I find it nice. What about you? (:

--FIRst Day <33--
1/22/2007 06:40:00 PM

Xing Zhi Sui Pian

Haha I am addicted to this song. It's sang by Tony Leung! and the blind girl. Great lyrics, nice song, average MV. Yep this is Di Xia Tie's MV. Enjoy.

歌曲：星之碎片
歌手：杨千嬅 + 梁朝伟专辑：杨千桦 2004 开大

梁朝伟:我听见我们坐飞毯去找星之碎片
而我们能遇见令天空更闪

杨千嬅:我听见有人唱圣诗声音表演我知
世上谁是我神秘的天使

梁朝伟:带著期待在地下铁外逗留在出口
怀疑谁正在盼望我带她出走

杨千嬅+梁朝伟:等你多久潮湿的快感来自你双手
陪你蒙上眼睛看尽大世界#闻到你生命如无限大

杨千嬅:随呼吸风中舞摆

杨千嬅+梁朝伟:伴我在逛街跟你蒙上眼睛看梦幻世界肉眼怎可了解

梁朝伟:幸福找不到边界

杨千嬅+梁朝伟:谁担心给你拐带*@

梁朝伟:我信也能看见的给抚摸的气息
我若存在过谁理深溕?

杨千嬅:带著期待在地下铁每日寻觅出口
怀疑下个站有人扶著我出走

repeat@

梁朝伟:情为何物哪用看真理

杨千嬅:repeat#

杨千嬅+梁朝伟:闻到你生命如无限大

杨千嬅:欲望在风中舞摆

Nice song? I love it.

--FIRst Day <33--
1/22/2007 05:31:00 PM

36% depressed!
Sunday, January 07, 2007

[x] You wear mainly black.
[x] You have had 5 or more arguments with your parents.
[ ] You own a pair of ripped jeans.
[x] You've cried yourself to sleep.
[ ] You used to think about suicide.
[ ] You've screamed so loud that your
throat hurt.
Total: 3

[x] You did or still do constantly worry what other people think
[ ] You're a transvestite
[ ] You own at least one metal CD
[ ] You buy/bought stuff from hot topic.
[x] Sometimes you'd rather be someone else.
[ ] You wear eyeliner
[x] sometimes, even with your friends your quiet and or sad
[ ] You cry mostly every day
[ ] You cry at least once a week; inside or out
[x]You'd never be seen in bright pink
[ ] You have taken drugs.
[ ] You smoke/ have smoked cigarettes
[ ] You've lost a close loved one
[ ] You wanted an old love back but
they didn't want you
Total: 4

[ ] Right this second you want to die
[ ] Your bedroom wall/s are black or dark colors
[ ] You've attempted to starve yourself
[ ] You've dyed your hair black
[ ] You've dyed your arm hair
[ ] Your computer is full of gothic symbols
[x] You sometimes feel like the whole world is against you
[ ] You stay up late
[ ] Sometimes, your family couldn't care less about you.
[x] You only leave your room to pee and eat
[ ] you drank/tasted alcohol.
Total: 2

[ ] You wear long sleeves in the summer
[ ] You Have fallen down from crying so hard before.
[ ] You wear spikes
[ ] You wear chains
[ ] You have at least one band Tee
[ ] You own merchandise of The Used
[ ] You own a death metal CD
[ ] You own a regular metal CD
[ ] Your myspace is black/gothic/emo
Total: 0

[ ] You dislike your siblings
[ ] You care more about your looks than a lot of more impt things
[ ] You go into mosh pits.
[x] Your hair is currently black
[ ] You own hand cuffs
[ ] you love the devil you pray to the devil
[ ] You own at least one shirt with sayings
[x] You lick your blood when you are bleeding
[x] You welcome the sight of blood
[ ] You normally don't smile in pictures
Total: 3

Now take all your total numbers, add
them then multiply your answer by 3 and
repost as % depressed

--FIRst Day <33--
1/07/2007 01:44:00 PM

Born to Love
Friday, January 05, 2007

Been watching MayDay's Born To Love MV (Wei Ai Er Sheng), and besides the fact that I like it quite a lot, I sort of find some understanding in all the mess of sounds. It comforts me, it gives me renewed faith.

Simply because I am born to love.

--FIRst Day <33--
1/05/2007 09:42:00 PM

Fate, Destiny and Reality

Being a Sec4 really changes things, doesn't it.

I used to think there'll always be time on our hands, but now it's running out. Desperate times call for desperate measures. There are quite a few things I need to tie up, so many things I have to do before the year's over and we all graduate to rjc. For the first time, I am starting the year with the end in mind. I know precisely what I want to achieve, what I want to take away from the 4 years of experience in rg. For the first time, perhaps, I seriously want to embrace every minute of the next few months before I start regretting it.

When I was in Sec1, I thought I could be a master of my own fate. Now, I seriously doubt it.

Now is the dramatic moment of fate, Watson, when you hear a step upon the stair which is walking into your life, and you know not whether for good or ill.

They say The bitterest tragic element in life to be derived from an intellectual source is the belief in a brute Fate or Destiny.

But I feel that fate is something I have no control over.

It lies not in our power to love, or hate,
For will in us is over-rul'd by fate.

CHRISTOPHER MARLOWE, Hero and Leander

That's probably why I feel that I am bound by fate, sealed in my own destiny.

It's tragic, isn't it. What's more, there's no armour against fate. And so I shall just wait for the arrival of my fate.

Talking so much about fate in such an abstract way, now I shall speak of something closer to heart.

Just had my first philosophy lesson of the year. Since the class was splitted up as usual, Mr Lorenzo (what a cool name!) took the first half and Mr John Fenulas (sp?) took the second, we the behind people went on with Mr John. Anyway, he's 408's CLET, and apparently he taught Philo at university level (he taught in Rome for a period of time), and worked under some ambassador, so now he's teaching us. Yea. He has an Italian accent I presume, and according to Nancy and others, it's 'cute'. Hmm. Well yeah he's kind of gentlemanly and nice. (: So thumbs up to him! Haha the 'Mama' thing was quite funny. Oops no offence. (: He called Nancy ZAO. Haha! So matrix-ish. And my name kinda evolved into 'SHIN'. Hey I think it's cool! Shin sounds so Goong and MayDay! Ok I'll go by Shin now, not oneheart, from this second onwards.

Then we had a free block to slack off our time, then assembly, rs, biology. Ms Lee Tien looks like a nice woman, but she HAD to test us on our bio knowledge, which is, for me, practically zero. I just dumped all my knowledge into the dustbin. Eeps dustbin? Haha pun intended.

Today some things just clicked in me. Only one thing actually matters. That is to study hard. and get good grades. I lost out in that the previous year, so I have to make up for it this year, though it's probably too late already, since it's the last year I am spending in this school. You know, I feel like smashing my head or something. I have to say it's my own fault, can blame no one. Hence, maybe I should change. That may not change things, but at least I have made an effort. I have done all these for a being, so that being should be feeling honoured for that? Besides, I may have probably saved myself on the way. So I should thank that being's existence instead, to make me realize so many things, to strive for excellence.

I hope I'll not eat my words. I'll come back a month later, and I'll see how much I've done by then.

--FIRst Day <33--
1/05/2007 07:59:00 PM

First Day
Wednesday, January 03, 2007

I don’t know what to think now. Too many emotions bottled up inside. And perhaps it’s exactly because of that which motivates me to post on this blog again.

Life had been too good during the holidays. I spent hours in front of the television in my grandparents’ house in Shanghai, watching shows like Chui Zhi Da Ji [Vertical Limit] which is about a bunch of parachuters and their life, Xing Shi Zhen Ji Dang An (that HK show), Li An Zhen Cha (Yes, again. Actually finished the 24 episodes in 2 days!), a few pretty good variety shows like Happy 7pm show, and Kuai Le Da Ben Ying. Practically spent the whole time watching TV, reading books, playing with my aunt’s 4 cats, eating, sleeping. But even then, I enjoyed every single minute of all that.

Back here again is like a rude wakeup call. Back to the horrible mess I’ve gotten myself into. Back to reality ya’ll know? Away from Ashin, away from May Day, away from all the good things in life…back to, god forbid, a very thing I never wish to set my eyes upon again, a person now I wish I’ve never known. Life is full of possibilities and choices. I, for some reason, have to get the worst.

Listening to 18sky songs now. They just seem to raise that bit of nostalgic feeling within me.

May Day’s Born To Love is not bad! I like the tracks ‘Micky Mouse’ and the cover song. Haven’t tried the rest yet, but I have high hopes for the 5. (:

Oh since today is the first day of school, I’ll just have to add… Life’s certainly unfair! I mean, I am fine with all my teachers but somehow I always seem to brush with luck. Argh. Promise me okay, Jasmine? Yan Yee? (: That’s the only thing that can mend my broken heart now! (laughs) Not that extreme actually.

That gets me thinking: perhaps I’ll have something done as a tribute to Da Man. That’s Johnny Depp btw. Or I’ll do it for Da FROG! –Applause-

In another dimension, in another universe. :D On another note, I wish everyone a great year ahead! Wooosh. Slyduck OUT.

--FIRst Day <33--
1/03/2007 07:52:00 PM