The clear blue sea of the Atlantic..

Saturday, January 28, 2006

happy chinese new year everyone.

i still miss obs. but after one week... it seems so far away. as if it's from another time, in another world.

i am addicted to american idol. again. even though it seems like deja vu when i was watching it on weds and the familiar feeling came back again. it's like watching an AI episode from the previous seasons. memories flooded back. constantine. bo bice. carrie underwood. the hollywood fight. oh and the judges. again. bickering. as usual. the contestants. mixture of okaays and extremely horrible ones. but pushing those aside... AI is fun. AI is amusing. AI makes you relax. AI rocks. kudos to simon's brutal remarks. they make my day. oh well. i am a sadist.

final destination 3! oh i see it coming. all the blood, the happy-tree-friends style of killing off people. how great. BUT. i am looking foward to it. haha i guess it shoud be NC-16 or something. bloody. just like yuhan and my dear underworld: evolutions. underworld is cool. vampires. lycans. hybrids. hmm.

dustbin haircut. ahem nancy you are making everything so obvious! get a grip on yourself and quit giggling hysterically! X] haha. tho admittedly dustbin is amusing.

--FIRst Day <33--
1/28/2006 05:38:00 PM

Monday, January 23, 2006

haix. i had a headache that never went away when i was in school, and a slight flu, and once i've reached home, i was alright again. possibilities: 1. i did not manage to sleep at all last night, trying to get rid of the itchiness on my legs, a reminder from my dear obs camp. 2. i don't want to go to school and carry on with our sianz life again, so the headache+flu was a post-obs blue thing. or perhaps it's the combination of the two.

i'll try to write some words of thanks to everyone. soon.

memoirs of a geisha is ok in its own way. the female leads look beautiful, while the main guy lead is gentlemanly. haha. but i still find the very last part rather funny. ok, perhaps not funny, but rather amusing. cant believe the guy liked the gal since she was just... 11? hmm. but ok larh, the story is rather sad, not exactly heart-wretching sadness, but at least makes you feel down. the ending is too good to be true though. fairytale ending. unlike king kong. king kong ending is sad. poor jack. ok back to geisha. it's a story of betrayal, hatred, love... you know the rest. shall not elaborate, so if you think it's worth your money, then go watch. i'll give it a 3 1/2 out of 5. :)

sighh. armstrong! <333 suffering from obs-withdrawal. sighh sighh sighh.

--FIRst Day <33--
1/23/2006 08:39:00 PM

OBS...again
Saturday, January 21, 2006

hey. i've slept for 11hrs! what a piggy i am. from 0000-1100. my whole body still aches, but much better than yesterday when i woke up in the tent. the sandfly bites and mosquito bites are getting a little better, but still extremely itchy. reminds me of yy's song, huhh.

yesterday's post was looong! it's all about what we did and what challenges we faced and so on. today's post is more about the lasting memories OBS brings me and the emotional journey we went through, as a person, as a watch, as a class, as a mobile.

mobile, as the word suggests, should be a little more tiring than the residential people bah. cos the residential people get to stay in proper beds, with pillows, and catered food. that's what mich, who is residential, told me yesterday on MSN. i guess if i've heard that during the past few days, i would have felt that there's an unfair treatment towards us. the difference between the geography and the history/lit classes. the differences between the gep and non gep classes. and yes, i can think of millions of things to complain about. now, i think mobile is good in it's own way. through all the trekking with our 20-30kg bags, through the cooking and sharing of food. through the tent pitching together and squeezing in a tent with 3-4 others. it was memoriable, it was challenging but what's all without any difficulties? i guess mobile is tiring but really fun. makes us bonded as a class, as a watch, as tentmates.

A ship in harbour is safe, but that is not what ships are built for. --william shedd

oh OBS. the turning point in my life, as what yanyee said. there are certainly many highs and lows of obs.

highs:

- night walk. it was really fun, and scary. as my pants brushed again each other, there was this sound made, that sounded like somebody following me. so i sang happy tree friends theme song to myself, trying to relieve the fear in me. it worked. so kudos to happy tree friends creator!

- pitching tents. it was fun and we felt accomplished whenever we managed to pitch a tent or when we managed to find missing spacers or tent pecks. X)

- jetty jump! that was fun too. very exciting. especially some people's 'last words' were extremely funny. like 'i am taller than kenny!'.

- when we saw the camp2 jetty, and when we had finished kayaking on the 4th day, during the sea expedition. mann. i felt so relieved and accomplished. and extremey grateful of the gal from 309 (rowena i think). she must have felt really tired and wanted to give up. i am so so sorry for that. i really am. thank you for tolerating the seasick me.

- trekking! when we've reached the destination. that was like YAY!!! we did it at last! after 3 hours!

- and whenever kenny or mel became really lameee. kenny's lameness really brightened up our otherwise rather depressing life full of hardships. our instructors rock! :)

lows:

- seasickness. gross. i really hate being seasick. i hate being so vulnerable, so helpless.

- the inverse tower challenge. i wanna overcome the fear of heights. i dont hate heights, but i am afraid of heights. i want to get to the top of the inverse tower if i were to have the chance again, and able to walk across the overhead bridge without breaking out cold sweat.

- the tuesday trekking part. it was much worse than the wednesday trekking, maybe because we had not gotten used to it yet. and my shoulders were aching, but i couldn't stop, for fear of toppling down. and i fell down! oh well. nevermind. pain is good. i like pain. but. my pants have a hole now!!! :( my beloved new pants! loll. haha but the falling down gave me renewed strength to carry on till the end. :)

- the last day. it was really sad! we had to leave the island and after the 5 days we've really began to appreciate an adventurous life outside civilization and the experience could last a lifetime. we've gotten so bonded as a group, and we've all grown close our instructors! armstrong rocks and kenny rocks!!! mel and amundsen rocks too! and when we were leaving the island, kenny was like doing the shooing action and we all felt extremely sad. alot of us in our watch cried, and calling kenny's name, saying bye bye to him. then when the boat finally sat off, and we left the jetty, i just cried and cried and cried. so that's it? this is the end? haix. and when the boat past by camp1, the memories of our first day, also on the boat, flooded back. that was when we thought we were going to camp1, but the boat went past camp1 and continued to camp2! camp1 really looks like a resort of some kind. then we saw the inverse tower, and the main building with the hall, and more memories came rushing back. memories of the fun and good times we've spent together. memories of me on the tower, of us in the hall waiting for kenny and mel, of us eating dinner there, of us waiting for the rain to stop to begin our trekking. sighh. we've really grown close to OBS. to the watch. to nature. so i cried again. then when the boat turned and the sign 'OUTWARD BOUND SINGAPORE' sign in camp1 was nothing but some small blurred words in the distance, and when the boat reached the shore of the mainland, reality dawned on me. this is such an anticlimax to such a fabulous journey. we were back in civilization, to the real world.... and hating it. i don't want to be back here. i don't want to be home. i refuse to accept reality. reality sux. i hate reality. i'd rather be in pulau ubin forever and ever, away from urban life. sighh.

The real OBS starts when you reach the mainland. The real journey begins there.

I LOVE ARMSTRONG jan16-20. I LOVE MEL AND KENNY. I LOVE 306. WE ROCK!!!

--FIRst Day <33--
1/21/2006 11:09:00 AM

OBS
Friday, January 20, 2006

I DECLARE THAT I LOVE OBS TO BITS!!!

AND I LOVE ARMSTRONG!

and I miss KENNY! :(

arhaha. just back from obs and really lovin' every part of it. even including the seasickness. ^^

DAY 1

We assembled in school hall at around 7+, with bags full of clothes and other necessities. Then was tAt! Oh man he rocks k. Even though he looks really blearghh. Anyways. Mr Tan gave us a briefing on obs, about the raining and bites and sunburn, and mrs tan wished us luck before we're sent off. At first I was rather afraid that I would be sorted in a different class as my classmates, but apparently according to Ms Lim I was in the same WATCH as half of my class. Whoops! Poor Nancy. Cos Ms Lim told her she might go to 307. Boarded the bus with our bulky bags. Ms Lim told Nancy she might be in the same WATCH as us! Then she broke us the news that we'll be spilt into 2 WATCHs, according to register, and both WATCH are mobile. We were like 'What?' Haiz. She also told us our WATCHs are called Amundsen and Armstrong respectively, and our instructors are Melissa and Kenny. So I was wondering if Kenny's a guy or gal. It sounds like a guy's name, Ken, but the 'ny' maks the name sounds kidish. ( Haha. Don't be offended Kenny! loll) But Ms Lim said it should be a guy's. So okaayy. Me and Nancy were like 'eeww. we want a gal instructor!', then after some consideration, decided that a guy instructor can be fun. And some gal (sorry forgot who) told us that Kenny's nice. Was relieved. Reached Pungol (sp?) jetty. We were the first class! See how great we are. :) There were alot of adults there, all very tanned. We looked around, trying to make a guess who's Kenny. Thought was this tall guy. We sat down and talked a little. Soon, the other classes came. tAt! arhaha. We waited and waited and waited, queued and queued and queued, talked and talked and talked, then finally there was a boat bringing us to Pulau Ubin! Yayy. Was excited. Sat in the boat. Saw this nice OBS camp at first, which looked so resort-ish and beautiful. BUT. THE BOAT MOVED ON AND DIDN'T STOP THERE! hmph. It moved on to this rather ulu place with a jetty and a small obs sign. Okaay. That's like a major disappointment. Talked about Dustbin. Then. Walked along the path of the jetty, careful not to slip into the water cos the right side was without any railings or protection. That really shows something mann. Walked and Walked and Walked with our heavy bag, to the 'Hall', which is basically a structure that has a platform and is a shelter. Like wow. Sat down. Was commenting on what brand of mosquito repellent is the best. The toilets were reasonably clean tho. Finally, everyone was there and this gal instructor went to the front and welcomed us there. Introduced us to our instructors. Turned out the tall tall blue shirt guy's steven. Aww poor nancy. Kenny was Dao mann. He didnt clap or cheer or was lame like steve. Instead, he was busy looking through something with this female beside heim, who was actually Mel. The nice nice gal introductor was in charge of Raffles. Arha. Our school name! Val was darn lucky. That was how I thought anyway. Then. We went off with our instructors. So duhh, we went off with Kenny. He was really dao and didn't speak much. He didn't really joke as well. In fact, thought he was rather boring. He was rather short, dark, and had spiky durian hair as well, btw. We sat down and he started doing the admin stuff. okaay. Our valubles were confiscated. Then he told me to go with him. He found this gal instuctor and she told him that I was to be confirmed whether I could do the activities for OBS, cos MrTan was checking with Health Promotion Board. So I was to be an observer by then. Okaay. We went back. Then he informed us we were to do kayaking the same day, but before that we'll do some counting and food stuff. And we signed the committment book, plus him talking about the yeah-you-shld-know-larh-the-freaking-me-out-stuff and all the ground rules and everything. So I went off with some others to help with the food. The food was heavy and bulky. Finished doing all the stuffs. Got some lifejackets. Wore the wet activities shoes. Then. At around 12 something-1 something, we set off to the beach there. Met the rest of the class there. The Amundsens! Yeah. Then Mel introduced herself and Kenny, and said our watches would be doing most of the activities together. Yayys. Class bonding time! So they taught us how to kayakand how to hold a kayak and stuff. Finally. We carried the kayaks over to the beach. Then Keeny told me I can't do the excerise. Boohoo. Only when I was like crapping to them about how great my back is and stuff, and I guess they felt either guilty or irritated, (I think I'll be the latter. X) ), then they walkie-talkied camp one and decided I AM OK!!! Told ya. :) So we walked into the water in a circle, and was all wet!!! First day of OBS k. But it was fun. Kenny splashed water on us and we were like 'hey! so mean!' and started bullying our instructor Kenny and sprayed water back onto his face, for a full 3 minutes or more. Poor Kenny. But he wasn't angry or anything, but just good-naturedly squeezed his eyes and turned behind, before complaining to Mel 'Walau they all bully me leh!'. Mel and the Amundsens laughed and laughed while we continued to bully Kenny. So we sort of warmed up with him and beginning to feel that he might not be as bad as I thought. They demoed the capsize drills and everything. Alicia and JN got stuck in the boat. oooops. So I kayaked for the first time in my life! It was quite fun. We chionged and chionged and chionged. JN and chen hoon's boat capsized first, and we're suppoed to save them. Mann the boat was certainly heavy! I think we took like an hour for chen hoon and jn to be back in their boats. woww. Then we cling onto this float thingy and started cheering raffles cheer and singing this really stupid song dawn created. ^^ ahaha. Then Mel asked us to land in front. Was like okaay, nvm. BUT. When we landed, realized it was this really muddy/swampy area. Wanted to backpedal and land somewhere else, but Mel the mean asked us to get out of our boats straight away. No choice but to get out and once my feet touched the muddy floor, I sank and my feet were stuck in the mud! I tired to get my foot out and took another step, and my another foot sank deeper in. Was really freaked out by then. Tried to take my foot out, then my another foot sank in the second time. Was seriously screaming hysterically inside. I took out my foot again, and guess what? I was barefooted! my shoe was stuck inside there! So had to plung my hand into the mud and practically spent a minute digging out the shoe. Walked on. In the mud. fell down a few times. Finally, after sinking in zillions of times, got to the shore! Yayy. Was relieved, but my shoes had turned into a nice shade of greyish-brownish-white. Yucks. It's like wet cement, just that the smell was not as strong. Poor Alicia still stuck there. Mel to the rescue. I thought we've kayaked to camp1, and when Mel told us we were still in camp 2, I was really shocked. Guess the tide was strong. At that time, admittedly, I was really pissed and frustrated, wondering why were we here in the first place. I even washed my shoes and clothes. Now, thinking back, I realize the rationale, or at least I think I do, plus that I was really selfish at that time. Boohoo. Helped to carry some kayaks back. Learn how to pitch a tent, taught by Kenny. Pitched tent in this piece of land that took like a hundred over steps to walk. Washed up. Ate dinner. Met with instructors. Fire drill.Talked and talked. Kenny was nice. Then. Can only rmbr sleeping. The tent was comfortable!

Day 2

Next day. Woke up like 5 am k. Even earlier than the time I wake up to go to school everyday. Change into the gross and rotting PE shirt and shorts. yucks. plus swimming suit. Capsize drill at 7. It was ok, except for the fact that my arms were tired and I couldn't get up the boat. Alicia developed a fear of capsizing last minute! :) hahaha. It was around 9 when we finally finished our drills. Thought it was noon already, couldnt believe it was still so early. Washed ourselves. Ate lunch and transfered most of the stuffs in my bag into the OBS loaned bag pack aka treking bag aka a really heavy weight thing. It was really heavy. Like my clothes plus 2L of water plus canned food and biscuits and a nice groundsheet. Plus puncho and my decomposing shoes and sandals. Did rock climbing/belaying excerise, then the real thing! haiz. Talked talked talked. Crap crap crap. Going to start our mobile treaking, when it rained a little. Took out punchos (sp?) and started walking slowly. Stopped raining. Put the puncho back. Continued walking. The backpack was DARN HEAVY! Yucks. And the three water bottles I was carrying. Fell down on some rocks. Got up. Continued walking. I dont mind pain. BUT I mind seasickness/heights. Sighh. Reached the end. Pitch tent. ATE DINNER IN CAMP1!!!!!! Catered food. Arhaha. I think the stationary pple are darn lucky to get nice food everyday. And Camp 1 looks so pretty. We were like some peasents coming from a rural area and were wowed by the glamour and lights of the city. Ate. Supposed to bathe but there was this super long queue so couldn't be bothered. Waited and waited and waited for Kenny and Mel in the hall. They finally came very very late. learnt about map reading and stuffs. kenny told us some stuff before Mel asked us the questions, so we answered her questions correctly. So she assumed that kenny told us all the answers. And whenever we answer things correctly without his help, mel'll look at hin and he'll say 'Raffles what.' Slept. (kenny was observing his feet btw. X) ) Beat. Slept. Kenny poke head in.

Day 3

Breakfast was good. Milo is nice. And my legs itch like crazy. was briefed. did the inverse tower challenge, aka the power of tower. -.-''' belayed nat and suyin for like 1 1/2hrs? hmm. Arms were tired. I should be a member of flabby arms or weak arms instead of armstrong. haix. finally it's annabelle and my turn. I had no more energy left and I was terribly scared of heights. I don't know why I have the phobia, but I do know that my grandma used to tell me to stand away from the edge of high buildings, windows and overhead bridge, and that now I can't even walk an overhead bridge without breaking out cold sweat. So I was extremely frightened and didn't dare to look down at all. Mann. When can I conquer my phobia? haix. Hereby I have to thank annabelle for all her support and encouragement! Anna you rock. Eventually I didn't manage to help her up and finish the challenge, and I feel really guilty about that. Why am I so afraid of heights. and creepy crawlies. yuccck. we're supposedto trek to another jetty in the afternoon. Yajie was sent home! Oh mann. Poor Yajie. So sad. Went to call Kenny as I was supposed to. Went with Chen Hoon. he wasn't there. Mel was like saying 'Kenny has gone to the South Park!'. I was like huhh. The question 'what's southpark' occupied me for a while. Now I know. It's a really popular cartoon in their times. Something like Happy Tree Friends. Mel cracks jokes I dont understand. Age gap mann. We live in a different generation! LOLL. Rained. We just stayed put and talked and crapped. About me lovin' blood. Haha. I am a bat/mosquito/and you know the thing. I love to eat quite bloody chicken or fish or any kind of meat. They're nice! And I never put medicine on my wounds to heal them. I'll just stare at them day and night. I had cuts from my falling down during the previous day treking and the first day kayaking, but I don't care about them. Cuts are rather nice. Pain is good. OOps. OK. I know I am weird/crazy/mad you name it. BUT. Blood's nice. yayy. We talked about Kenny. About his gf should be called barbiny. cos ken and barbie, kenny and barbiny! haha how clever are we! Then alicia said that kenny's name is too sweet to be scolded, and that her name is nice to be suaned. Then Kenny have to appear at that minute and we were like laughing and laughing and laughing, alicia totally piaseh out. Then we just tell him what alicia said lorhz. kenny had that okaaaaaay look on his face. Rain was over. Amelina and I were supposed to lead the pack. And so we did. Today, the bagpack wasn't as heavy as the previous day one. Perhaps I was getting used to it! Treked and treked and treked for an hour plus. 3km covered. Destination reached. (oh yeah btw kenny is nicer than Mel. Mel was mean!!! haha. i am just j/k) On our way, we were really unsure of where to go and the map could be rather confusing, and I just chose the path I thought should be right and went. Haiz. I really shouldn't have done that. Am I too rash a person? Perhaps. The camping area was filled with families of insects. We pitched our tents and were warned of wild boar attacks. Then. mel and kenny came and told us we were leaving and going to another campsite! cos apparently some watches were battling with the waves in the sea and could not reach the jetty we were in in time, so they just landed somewhere else and we'll have to walk there. Packed in a hurry. Backtracked for miles. Walked on. Mingyue was telling lame jokes and we were talking about our Northland days. our P5 camp I Can and stuffs. Gee. Reached the new campsite after another hour. WE WALKED 6.4km ALTOGETHER! and surviving it! yayy. with all the puddles and mud! Kenny is lameeee. and funny. haha. The place is a quarry and the floor's full of rocks and sand. We pitched our tents using rocks instead of tent pecks. It's not really stable. Kenny helped us. But it's safe. For now. Then helped chen hoon set up tents. cooked dinner. The toilets = this rather big abandoned place facing the sea that you'll have to walk slowly down into, and do your business. It's aint that bad as you think anyway. Washed our stuffs in the sea. how dirty the sea is! we're polluting! buried the paper waste products. The rest we'll just have to carry around. We were briefed on our sea expedition. kenny was so lameee and funny and weirdd. even some gals in 309 said that. haha. kenny! loll. Steven was briefing us. Arghh we'll have to kayak the long way, and it's like 20km+ The tides will change at around 8 and we will be against the tides! How sad. But when we turn the corner near chik jawa, then it'll be alright. We talked about pee and shit in the tents. i still think freakin' pee is better than f***ing sh*t. ahaha. my creation! pee is better than sh*t. X) kenny checked on us. was freaky k, when suddenly someone shone his light into your tent. Nat was like saying Kenny will be one of the pluses for the obs camp and that he's nice. ok he is. haha chlorine water! nat hates chlorine water. X) and kenny is strong. he can carry 2 20L bottles. Which makes it 40L/kg. Wow. slept for like a minute before someone called us to wake up. did our night duty. The singing voices coming from the Malaysia mainland is freakyy. haiz. slept.

Day 4

woke up with back aching. the rocks underneath are darn hard! but the sleep is good. quickly change and unpitch. packed up our stuffs. Got ready for kayaking. Kayaking was bad at first cos my arms were like practically dead. poor alicia. i am so sorry. then after a while, got used to it, and we could pedal faster. The drift was strong, the tides against us. But we perservered and managed to make the turn! the instructors were on some speedboat! so unfair. The waves turned strong and I could not help but puking and getting really seasick. It was bad. even orange peels couldn't work for me. i felt really bad and my head ached. oops i must have been really frustrated and wanted to give up. Was pissed when the instructors refused to help me and a few other seasickers. they wanted me to eat! like hello i am puking?! And i really puked it out. decided i'll not eat anything. i became slightly better. change boat to the red one, and this gal from 309 was kayaking for me. Oh man. was really and is really touched by her. she's really nice k. very patient. after a while, the sea was calm again and my seasickness immediately vanished. especially the channel there, when steven said that beyond the channel was our camp 2, all my sickness went away. and me and my partner chiong and chiong and chiong. Finally reached our camp!!! HOME SWEET HOME! was hungry again. turned around to see my unknown partner, and here she was! i didnt even know how she look like before this moment k. cos i didnt turn back. really, i owe you lots. safely landed. carried kayaks to the stands. finshed everything, we sat in a circle, all the four watches who were kayaking togather. namely: amundsen, armstrong, bt and cheng ho. 306 and 309 rocks! I ate. We sang songs. We cheered raffles cheer. And Kenny went crazy/hyper again. -.-''' We were supposed to meet kenny and mel at the jetty after the bagpacks were loaded from the boats. we were jetty jumping! The b'dae girls went first. we're supposed to say something before we jump. some pple said 'i want to pee!' and dawn said 'wabiangoi!' and someone else screamed 'arhhhhh'. then pple started to ask pple jumping in to say 'i'm taller than kenny', 'i am as tall as kenny' or 'i am going to be taller than kenny', or 'my handwriting is better than kenny's' so it became a -er than kenny thing. haha rubbing in because of his height! ooops. we're soo meann. Kenny could do nothing but shake his head and sighh. steven said 'i am taller than kenny!' when kenny complained to him we bully him. Even the 307 instructors were rubbing in. Then we asked kenny to jump in. we urged him to say 'i will not grow taller' or 'i cannot grow taller' or something along those lines. In the end, he shouted 'Irritating!' and jumped down. we all were like laughing and laughing. very funny sia. the 307 ones are funny as well. the guy said he love the gal, the gal said he love the guy. hahaha. bathed. packed. got ready for the next day. pitched tents. then for the finale, we had a nice night walk! night walk was fun. we had to walk to the reservoir there from camp2, without the use of torchlights. we went as a group at first, then when we reached there, we had to walk back alone, just by oursleves! I don't mind cos pri5 camp I Can our watch Bravo did that too. very fun. and our campsites were rather near some graveyards. haha. So when it was my turn, i bid the rest farewell and walked into the darkness beyond, where all the fun laid. I hummed and sang happy tree friends theme song in my head, and thinking about dustbin, and even saying out loud 'woah' when i almost tripped onto something. i walked rather fast cos i didnt want to linger for too long. reached the other end! talked with the rest on wild boars and wild dogs and suncream and bites. haha. was fun. then debrief, we shared our experience and stuffs we don't want to do, but have to do or managed to do. kayaking was a horrible experience. slept in our tents the very last night. kenny checked on us. helped us tie the tent opening thing. i remember someone in a tent beside our tent was talking really loudly. and we gossiped.

Day 5

Woke up later then usual. Did store check and washed the instructors' toilets. at least we didnt lose anything! yayy. wrote the farewell note to him, as a watch. sadd. when kenny saw this he was like 'oh i am touched and i scared i'll cry.' okaaay. happy days would be gone so soon. armstrong rocks! then we had our final debrief. we talked about the experience we've gained. i had a really heavy heart, for some reason. i felt quite sad. we got back our valuables, and our photos. we made kenny sign all of our informal pics and write personal messages for us. The last bit about the OBS journey would really start once we've reached the mainland was saddening. haha we joked about his handwriting again! and that he looks cool only when he wears shades/sunglasses, and when he took off his sunglasses was like okaaaaayyy.... he seemed to be irritated, but all in a good-natured way. he was never angry with us. as in real anger. we kept on laughing when seeing his handwriting. dismissed. did souvenir shopping. bought a black shirt and silver collar pin. im officially broke. got our photos with a note back, signed by our instructor. oh he said OBS is his dream job. sighh. I guess I've learnt lots from the camp. initiative... determination... positive mindset... AND TRUST. Trust. remember what kenny said about trust? about he and...? yeah. i'll have lotsa stuffs to learn. the gal who briefed us on our first day debriefed us again. then kt said some stuffs, and we sang delication. we called for kenny and mel to come, 'come kenny! come mel!'. we stood in a circle, our arms together, singing the familiar tune. kenny was being lame again, which made us feel even worse. he was like mimicing us singing the high pitch parts. and the raffles cheers! then our watch screamed 'we love you kenny!'. haha. it sounds eewww righto. but we all agree that he's the best instructor. cos we're biased! LOL. took the boat to mainland. we said goodbye to kenny and i added 'must miss us!'. He said 'I will! Bye bye!'. Chen Hoon was really sad. I was too. So was suyin. we sat near the Kenny side, so we opened the window and said bye bye to him. Then when the boat suddenly started moving away from the jetty, we screamed his name and said things like 'do miss us!' and 'goodbye!'. At first he waved, then he swung himself almost out of the jetty, acting as if he wanted to shoo us away. He was like doing the kicking action and didn't want us to stay like that. how mean of him! Then he started waving too, saying 'bye', and did the shooing action again. By that time, 5 of us in Armstrong watch were crying and crying. oh yes including me. Everyone was sad, even those who didn't cry. Finally, he waved and waved again, before he became a small dot in the jetty. and the jetty disappeared into the distance. me and chen hoon were like hugging each other and crying, trying to reassure ourselves. who ask him to be so nice. sighhh.

I'll miss obs. I'll miss all the adventure there. I'll miss pitching and sleeping in a tent. Most of all, I'll miss kenny. sighh. and Mel. Miss the times we spent together as a watch, as a class. Kenny and Mel, you guys rock. :)

--FIRst Day <33--
1/20/2006 06:54:00 PM

OBS pic!!! Yay. finally manage to upload it. whoops.

to serve to strive and not to yield. how appropriate!

--FIRst Day <33--
1/20/2006 11:42:00 AM

Saturday, January 14, 2006

i am a fan of jay chou's new album. it's official. his songs are so nice!

--FIRst Day <33--
1/14/2006 05:08:00 PM

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

mann this is so beyond cool.

maple story! 3rd job gonna be out soon!!!

warriors of all jobs are so darnn cool!!!

i love warriors!!!

my warrior will be a white knight!!! the attacks are so darn cool can. for more info/to find out just how cool the attacks are, go www.maplesea.com for more info!!!

mann.

tho i have to admit the dragon knights' attacks seem really beyond cool. even better than a white knight or a crusader's. BUT. white knights rock. i shall be a really cool white knight!!!

yayy

shall play ms now. shall train like madd!!! ms rocks!

hahahahahaha. I AM FEELING SO ELATED.

tho saw skll only once. was rushing off i guess. haiz.

anyway. MS ROCKS!!! 3rd JOB IS BEYOND COOL.

--FIRst Day <33--
1/11/2006 04:58:00 PM

Monday, January 09, 2006

sunday. jas and i went to carrefour suntec city to but some obs stuffs. before that i've gone to suntec city once perhaps, so didnt even know it's in city hall. thank goodness jas asked her friend and confirmed that Suntec Is In CITY HALL. oops. anyway. we talked and talked about everything under the sun, from our new classes to concerts and npcc sea ahem yes skll!!! we walked and walked and walked through this long underground tunnel... till we reached suntec city! whoops. yeah. then i was complaining that i was hungry so we went to starbucks! yupp. bought some chocolately buns and some cappuccino, as suggested by jas. but the drink was really bitter. should buy some sweeter stuffs next time round. oh jas crushed the waiter/cashier there! ok perhaps not crushing. more like keep on going how cute the guy is. -.-''' then i was still hungry, so i went in and buy this blueberry toasted bread! oh man it's rock hard and so difficult to cut so i buliied jas to help me cut the bread. haha realized the jas's guy look like rain/ming zhen hao when he smile. but i dont like rain/mzh so too bad.

we continued walking, trying to find our way to carrefour. finally reached. got lost in there. btw carrefour reminds me of the numerous shopping trips i had in china with my aunt! oh man i miss my aunt, my cousin, and their 4 cute cats. finally we managed to get ourselves to the clothes section. bought a fbt each, and track pants one blue one black each. and we've decided to wear the same black one next monday!!! then we'll be evil twins. LOL. yupp. paid our stuffs. shop for jas's sandals. then went home.

such a wonderful day right. if only... haix. tsk.

today!!! monday. another nice day. morning assembly rocks k. skll! we got spot-check. see i am a sadist. haha. after assembly there was this meeting up session for people who wanna join npcc sea. npcc sea rocks. yupp. our batch is the biggest batch!!! i think some 20+ 30+ people joined k. that's like... more than double the number of sec1s and 2s joining. nvm. npcc sea is a cool cca! and our teachers in charge are mr ganesh and mrs toh! ok ms michelle ang. haha. my chem teacher. she's nice. then maths. mr jason ng was there today. he's funny! unintentionally. we were doing this worksheet where we're supposed to find out the errors in AMY's test paper. and he kept on calling AMY MARY. hello?? mary? then he was like saying, oh perhaps because of the song 'mary has a little lamb'. okaay. that's funny. whatever he said we just kept on laughing. he is sort of erm... weird? lol. but he's nice larh. yayy. ms neo will be coming back tml!!! then we'll have her. but both are nice. X) arhahaha. ss. we just talk and talk and talk about all the news and stuffs. i was entertaining sutha. and talking abou maple story with serene mann maple story rocks. chem. mann now my npcc sea tchr-in-charge cum mrs toh thinks i am weird. =S just because for group discussions i wanna work with nancy and lin square in a group of 4 instead of 3! boohoo. somemore sarah isnt here. oh yeah sarah good luck mann. for your obs. should be raining now so best of luck! ^^ u can do it, poker!!! ^^ yeah so mrs toh thought i was freaky. and told nancy and lin square to sit somewhere else to do their discussions. haha yayy nancy and i are water molecules! Relatively strong bonds but disorderly movements. see? i've gotten it internalized. haha. but actually i dont really understand chem. guess i am not a chem person. im more of a... recess person! i love recesses and lunches. and slack blocks. oh and i like assembly too! assembly rocks. ok maybe i am really weird. physics. bio. oh we have triple science today! haha plus math. today is a sciences day. bio is ok larh. ^^ yayy. i wanna go tioman again! i really dont mind. 5 days! really cool. i wanna gooooo. but i think my parents wont allow. cause i've gone there before just last summer? haiz. but it was funn!!! i wanna gooooo. tiomannn.

mann. saw t cube. wearing striped shirt. not really nice. haiz. sirX's fashion sense betta. yea?

haha ytd's charity show! i love ass-hech-yi's songs. yayy ass-hech-yi rocks. and david tao! he looks damn like skll can. tho skll looks better. haha. but really. quite alike. one reminds me of another. yayy.

--FIRst Day <33--
1/09/2006 03:51:00 PM

Friday, January 06, 2006

i am feeling really happy now. (haha happy reminds me of ms lim and her H-A-P-P-Y values. lol)

idolizing someone does not equate to crushing someone. i mean, how can you crush your idol?! idols are meant to be idolized, dudes.

idolizing. it all started with matrix when i was still pri4. in northland. i simply love the show. neo was my hero, the coolest guy on earth with lotsa guns. haha. then it was just cutting of newspaper articles related to Matrix and collecting them in a file. then as years passed, i liked agent smith instead. (btw agent smith really reminds me of joseph toh. i told him that last year on the first lesson. he was like 'he's the bad guy isnt it?' and i went like 'but i like him!')

THEN: wasnt crazy about 5566 like my pri school classmates. liked SHE, but didn't love them. hate jay chou.

NOW: SHE is great. ass-hech-yi rocks more. jay chou's songs are really good (esp. the lastest album. really loves it), and i have hundreds of other idols.

i mean, there are like billions of people in this world, so i guess there'll be at least a thousand of them whom i can learn somethings from. mostly are hollywood actors/actresses, or singers, but there are some exceptions. like the one on the top of my idols list now. skII may just be as normal a person as we all are, but there are many things in skII that i admire, unlike some of the artistes i judge merely by looks.

idols motivate you. that's what good luck did to me. that's what zaizen did to me. that's what skII does to me.

mann i am feeling so exhilarated now.

heard there is a study trip to Tioman sometime this year. well. reminds me of the time i went there with my family and man chuo (lydia)'s family. it was really fun!! ok perhaps i shall recount what happened there.

we took a couch there. it was a long bus ride after we entered malaysia. me and man chuo talked and talked throughout the journey. we talked about mr and mrs smith, school, and sbject combination. we were like wondering what we should take the following year (this year), and listed down the pros and cons of taking each subject. i remember both of us agreeing that lit should be the most fun, and i even agreed to take lit then. (ok now i am feeling depressed yet again. should i have taken lit... well i think my life will be much different than now. decisions! they really change lives. gan3 tan4.) boohoo!!! anyway, we also watched ghost train and star wars III there. we both started to like brad pitt! slept a little there. the we took this nice little speedboat there. it was cool. reached the island. it was huge. the smell of mangoes greeted us. we did snorkelling, playing with water, and ate fabulous meals our guide cooked for us. haha. at night at first we wanted to watch this brad pitt show, but it was at around 0000hrs so we had to catch up on sleep instead. the trip back was less eventful, besides the occasional splash of water and the strong winds.

my gosh. just realized something. this is so darn cool. nvm.

--FIRst Day <33--
1/06/2006 07:33:00 PM

Thursday, January 05, 2006

...and i cried.

i feel so deeply hurt. actually i never knew i would even care. i didnt know this means so much to me. i never knew a person can have such a huge impact on me. i've never cried because of a person i dont even know. and the person has nothing to do with this directly, but indirectly caused so much pain and tears. i dont know if i am beginning to hate this person. is this a mistake? have i trusted the wrong person?

actually, it's not that serious. really. sometimes they say your best friend is also your best enemy. it really applies to this case.

but one thing is for sure, i cannot look at the person straight in the eye anymore. and i can never bring myself to face him/her anymore. but deep inside knowing it's not his/her fault. he/she is completely an innocent party. he/she didnt do anything wrong. in fact, he/she doesnt even know what had happened. so why am i feeling so depressed now? why am i crying for him/her? WHY?

tears formed in my eyes, threatening to trickle down.

there is no chance anymore. and i can never do what i wanted to do. all i can do is to hold on to the last bit of hope left deep down within me.

is this what they call fate?

i am heartbroken. i am depressed. i wanna die right here. i have no more hope left.

she told me. something that made me wanna die right there. why o why. i am such a hopeless case perhaps. but it's really tragic. it made me lose hope of getting everything right on track again.

it was then that i realized i've made the wrong choice. why. why. is it so hard to follow my passion and getting what i want at the same time?

i hate him/her. forever. the boring thing i have to make do with make me feel even worse. oh i really hate him/her. but can i bring myself to it? it's like killing my motivation. my inspiration. my hope. my dreams. everything. just gone like that.

and people spreading stuffs around makes me feel even worse. because i cannot bring myself to it. or rather, i do not know whether to hate or remains as it is now.

torned.

oh mann. i keep on staring at the website. that makes me sad. is this the end? of everything? but why is it that i cannot bring myself to clicking on the cross?

i didnt know i was that obsessed with him/her. i didnt know. i didnt want this to happen.

why do i end up hurting myself?

back from dinner a sec ago. feeling a little better now. gosh. reread what i wrote and thought i sound like as if i've lost my love or something. NO. i didnt. but i've lost my idol.

idols are meant to be idolized. not crushed. fyi.

anyway. i mei lian jian ren le larh. after this. today's incident.

clarify. if u all dunno what i am talking about... i am feeling jealous k? of the stoopid shinyi nice mel (ex-103 that one) and zhimin. oh and plus man chuo. woah i am feeling so sad.

i dont want to go to school. what if i see him/her again? i'll probably die right there or something.

it's not wrong to idolize.

i guess shall not blog anymore. have finally let out all the sadness within me.

i shall be a loyal supporter. i shall be optimistic.

oh wellz.

--FIRst Day <33--
1/05/2006 08:17:00 PM

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

i have decided.

i have to post this no matter what.

i think i am in the craziest mood since... dunno when. first time i am feeling so crazy.

perhaps it's because of my equally crazy classmates.

or perhaps...

shall just let it trail off.

jasmine's so lucky that's all i wanna say. jas the lucky pok. -punch jas-

anyway. Tat was behind me this morning before assembly. and was near me the whole time as i chat with my friends. i was shocked. shuo dao cao cao cao cao jiu dao!!! haha. BUT. anyway was feeling rather happy seeing her. well she didnt smile at me or whatever. daoed me. -.-''' haiz. -heartbroken- lol. anywayy. she is nice larh. ok super nice. XD

my class is fun!!!

lin square. sarah. cynthia. yajie. yadi. nancy. ok shall leave it to tml.

--FIRst Day <33--
1/04/2006 07:10:00 PM

heyy.

omg i think i seriously going crazy le.

over.

tt.

he/she is cool k.

and he/she has brains k.

and he/she rocks k.

haiz.

306 is rather fun btw!!! nice class. my classmates are all really nice people!!!

we just laugh and laugh and laugh.

yayy sixers!!!

still.

he/she rocks.

i am so deeply hurt.

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

i wanna cry.

--FIRst Day <33--
1/04/2006 05:25:00 PM

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL

wait.

ok since jas mentioned it in the tagboard...

we saw this person with dyed hair -ahem- and jas named him the t-guy. i want him to teach me!!! he's quite cool. ^^ a little gay tho... (sorry jas, can't help it) from now on he's the T-GUY. lol. (i think he teach shiny. but i may be wrong) but if i am not wrong he teach maths. haiz. sighh sighh. my maths teachers are jason ng and someone else. i think my class got 3 maths teachers. one each for advance strand, amaths, emaths. sighh. i wonder how they're like. hope they're not like... yeah.

alpha! he's cool too!~~ <33 ^^ alpha rocks.

since i am on it i shall say zaizen is nice too!

so is koda.

so is snape.

so is dav.

so is gu yue tao!

so is erm... shi ba sui tian kong!!!

haha it's showing on channel u i think, at arnd 11.30. cool right? go watch! support gu yue tao! support pei pei! support the other what's-the-name guy.

oh apparently jas/yanyee's class got jtoh as cle teacher. it's quite... cool. sighh. make me depressed. =/

oh btw my form teacher is my history and ss teacher. my cle teacher is my eng teacher. chinese is co teacher. sciences are some dunno what teachers. big sighh. pe. ms tan i think. haiz.

i am so looking forward to this year.

listening to the wu chu cai hong songs provided by the nice mel. X) the songs are so sadd...

oh well. my classmates are rather nice i think. good thing i guess...

--FIRst Day <33--
1/03/2006 03:54:00 PM