生命的一种绝对
Monday, May 14, 2007

You know, maybe I should reflect on my life more than going crazy over MayDay. Do not get me wrong, MayDay is a great addition to my life, and I really appreciate how much they have inspired me and motivated me. They have brought much joy and excitement to my life. [Just see how happy I am each day. A 终结孤单 or 花 can lift me from the deepest valley of sorrow. 0.0] They are really great, really wonderful people. Can't imagine a world without them. I'm sure most MD fans will agree. That's why they have such a huge following, that's why there are still so many remaining fans. Love and Peace, Hope and Joy are the very things MayDay wish to bring about to the world. That's the true spirit of MayDay [Or any other rock bands for that matter]. That's 他们和我们的倔强.

But it is also essential to get our feet firmly on the ground [Besides during MayDay concerts, because we're supposed to leave our seats and JUMP! right? Hey dude, it's 离开地球表面.], because you can't expect to live long in the outer space without oxygen tanks and face masks right? So I shall quit beating around the bush and get straight to my point.

Why is the earth round [I mean sphere]? Why is the sky blue? Why is the grass green?

Why is the world filled with terror? Why are there so many conflicts? Why can't anyone feel anything much these days?

Why am I so troubled? [Okay this is a pretty lame attempt at rhetorical questioning. Sorry.]

I know it's pretty dumb of me to feel this way, and I don't really know how to put all my thoughts together into a single coherant paragraph, but I am trying. Okay let me start with this. Why did I quit CO?

My decision of quiting CO had been manifested throughout the 3 years I've been in CO. It can be summed up with one word, 'rebelliousness'. 我不甘平凡. 我不愿受约束. 我想证明一件事，我的未来不应该被我自己以外的人所控制. 更恰当的是，我，要走我自己路，不管再艰难，再充满荆棘，至少我能骄傲的说：我曾试过，我曾感动过. 就是这么的简单. 大家不需要太过猜测. Quiting CO may not change my life much, but it's a step. It's a step towards having a firm grasp on my life, such that it won't go reeling out of my control. It's to tell those people straight in the face, 'This is my life, not yours.'

青春是挽不回的水转眼消失在指间
用力的浪费再用力的后悔 [Three guesses for the name of the song and the singer (:]

Joining the Police Force. I feel the calling. I guess it's the same feeling when you suddenly have that special tingling sensation that accompanies a strong belief that the next one will hit the jackpot. The Blue race, that's what Michael Connelly calls it. Am I ready for it? Am I ready to sacrifice everything I've achieved so far in life for something not necessarily worth the cause? It's a totally different career path from my peers, whom I believe would aspire to become doctors, lawyers, business women, women leaders in their fields. I can foresee that in the future, my classmates will return for a class of 2007 dinner donning branded wear, all extremely successful, while I will be sun burnt, face wrinkled from days of worrying over certain cases, and world weary. Will I regret? Will I lose the faith I have?

I hope not.

当风雨都过去迎着风看天空
不放弃才能够有感动
这一生这一次为自己抬起头
至少要骄傲的盛开过

Whatever it is, life is too short to fret over things like this.

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