Alpha Beta Celesta
Friday, October 07, 2005
wake me up when september ends.
such a nice song. haha. but don't like the MV lehh.
It sort of sums up the feelings I have for the past few weeks, when my blog was down because of some technical problems which led to me being unable to post. I feel so sian and wanna die.
That night I was doing RS, and was listening to this song and The Reason. It was going on twelve. Feel so sad listening to the two songs. Felt like crying. Arghhh.
They are so nice and sweet! Yeah. THEY. As in a group of people. Yay they rockkk. Hearttt them. Haha I am growing insane. ABCDE and F!!! THEY RULE!!!
Oh yeah Maple Story. My warrior is now level 20!!! So zai of me! X) Yay. She looks so cuteee with her new clothes!!! And weapons. I've got my old leather purse and some cool (but a little nerd) ice jeans. Oops so contradictory. >.<>.< Shall go earn alot of mesos after the exams. Oh and my mage character! This super nice guy helped me level up for free and gave me 1k when he realize I had no money!!! Gosh he's me saviour. ^^
I hate irresponsible people who slacks alot but act pro and guai in front of teachers. Come on purlees (put on bimbo accent), why are YOU telling everyone YOU did everything but in fact all YOU did is FC? Life is so unfair. And apparently THEY love people like YOU. Ahaha. How great. Oh yeah btw I think THEY hate the three of us at the back. THEY = sterotype of a certain group of people you either like or hate. Yeah. Another type of people I hate is those freaking biased people. Especially somebody who thinks that she's oh so popular and superior. Damn her. (Sorry for the language. The more I think of it, the angrier I feel.) If she were to play MS I would be KSing her and defaming her whenever I have the opportunity. But one day I will forgive. It's just not today.
I hate THEM . But I hate myself too. I forgive. But I will never forget.
Sometimes I wonder how I managed to tolerate them. I was angry. I was depressed. I hated life. And they did this to me. I hated myself. I wondered what is the meaning of life. I bled. I thought that's the end of everthing between us. But after so many years, I forgave. I let go. I do not want to hold onto these memories anymore. But will I ever forget? It's hard to.
Super biased people, prejudiced people, haughty and vain people, people universal language is money.
I don't think I am someone who Ji Chou. Everyone is imperfect, the more I am. Normally I will forgive after a drink to cool down. Normally I don't voice it out, I just keep to myself. But sometimes cuts are just too deep. It'll take time. The time will come eventually. But I will remember it, I will dream about it. Nightmares, more like it. It's so ironic, so gross to see the uglier side of people you thought you know very well. It's sad. But I have to admit I am not much better. But I hope I'll be able to change, for the better.
The above I have mentioned does not pin point a certain person, but in fact, the devil in many of us.
Even though this happened quite a while, I still feel that I should mention it. That fateful -ahem- day, half of my class wasn't there because of the third language examinations. So first block, Eng. Mrs Yue was on MC. ^^ Maths. Did a nice quiz -sarcasm dripping- and then just went through assignment I-don't-remember. PE. Was supposed to have shooting assessment but played a friendly match instead. Released 20 mins early for recess. Chinese. Did a close passage WS. Then we just read newspapers and crack jokes to the whole class. Those Qian Bian Wen Da Ti. Even our Chinese Tecaher joined in. Yay. So fun. History. Mrs Mak wanted us to present our powerpoints, but most of our class's powerpoints could not open. So sit around slacking. Did a crossword puzzle. Released 3 mins early for lunch!!! Science. Chem. It's so fun! Mrs Tay wasn't there, so we were doing experiments in the lab. Was mixing all the chemicals around. Viv and a few of us were spraying water around. My whole face was wet with tap water! After that, Zhengpei Yiyue and I went outside, leaing on the railings. Zhengpei did a running commentary on the brand of the cars entering the school. Quite a few Merces. Then the bell rang and we went home! Such a rockin' day. Somemore it' s a longggg day!!! Lol Lol Lol. I love third lang eoys. ^^
These days I listen to the hip hop/rap songs all the time, maybe due to the influence by our dear dance class teacher, who will play these hard to catch songs over and over again, and we'll have to dance to the beat. So i grew to like those songs. Haha. For eg. Don't Lie and Let me Hold You and Lose Control (the MV is spasticated!). Yeah. But right now I am listening to BSB songs. Actually they are quite nice! Though I don't exactly like Incomplete, but the rest are OK! Whatever...Oh now it's playing Larger than Life! Stir back Primary school memories... Lol. Everyone. Safest Place to Hide. Poster Girl (a song that makes me happy).Weird World (such a funny song). Not bad.
--FIRst Day <33--
10/07/2005 07:03:00 PM
